Just to confuse and bemuse regular readers, I am pondering on the wrong day… and it is a pondering about where I want to go with the ponderings and indeed all of my content, so this is technically a ‘Polly Filler’ piece, but about Ponderings, on the day that I would generally put out a Kettle List piece… So…I’m going to need a new Canva aren’t I?
What ‘Ponderings’ are supposed to be
The initial idea I had when I started ‘Pondering’ was to research and write quick and simple pieces; posts that I could complete, edit, find pictures for, publish and publicise in a lunchtime on the WordPress App. When I put it like that, it does seem somewhat ambitious! And it went well, and I still want to embrace ‘the ponder’!
My first posts were about things like Mobile Phone Use, and People pleasing, but recently, I have started writing on a subject and once I have looked into it, realised it needed further research to make the piece worth while and more robust. You would not believe how many half written posts I have in my draft folder. (It’s 52; I have 52 half written posts) This is because I have a bit of a perfectionist issue, so I always feel like the work could be better, or more detailed, or have better graphics, to the extent that I don’t publish a lot of the work I write.
I also feel I need to make a decision about what the blog is actually about. There is a plan, and a list – of course there is a list! I live for lists! – and I feel I am overthinking some pieces to the extent that they never get finished.
So, what is the plan Pol?
I need more structure; more focus. The idea behind the blog was the mid-life misadventures of a caffeine fuelled Bucketlister/ Wannabe teacher in Japan. I feel less and less of my current output involves any of these things – not even tenuously. I could write more on mid-life issues, on why I have certain items on my various lists, or get my ass in gear and tick more challenges off of those lists and write about that. I have my TEFL course coming up, and I could tell you about the various online certificates I have gained, or about the inspiring books I have recently been reading…
Therefore, the new plan is to re-re- focus. I need to complete all of the pieces I started about my various 40×40 / Kettle List challenges, spend more time creating and completing my educational resources and I need to carve out more time to get my adventures done. I have an essay like piece I have been writing for months regarding #3 of the 40×40 list – complete a degree. It needs to be done, especially as I have a trip to L.A to plan, which I am totally milking for content! It’s not like I cannot work to deadlines; I am all about studying and learning. Why then can I not set myself deadlines to get pieces written? This is the problem with being accountable to no-one!
Ultimately, this means that my output may be somewhat erratic over the next few weeks, while I catch up and sort a few things out, but rest assured, like an elegant swan, I am feverishly pedalling away under the waterline, where you can’t quite see it. I say swan, more penguin-y…yeah penguins are cool. I am a penguin, hard at work and I will be posting one of those unfinished posts soon. It is all about being focused.